Puffin's Sky - Go Fly Kite!

Chinese New Year.....

2011-01-26T06:11:00.000-08:00

26th Jan 2011, 2212....raining.

CNY is approaching, first time in my life i received a hamper and a few cartons of mandarin oranges for CNY. Does that mean people are trying to give me a good impression? am i that important now? haiz...

Anyway, wishing you all a happy Chinese New Year 2011..... i will be off to KK this year.

05.01.11

2011-01-05T06:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday drove from Tawau to Sandakan, from 11am to 4pm. It took me almost 5 hours to reach Sandakan coz it was raining all the way. Tiring journey.

This afternoon frew over to KK and drove up here, Keningau. The weather on the mountain was so fresh and cool. Reached here around 8pm, checked in to Queen Hotel, room 208. After a hot shower, it's time to do some works for tomorrow meeting.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day, i hope i can finish everything by 4pm so that can go down to KK, stay a night and fly back to Sandakan first flight 7am on Friday morning for the Sandakan meeting.

Tight schedule, hope to sleep and rest well tonight.

* * *

Happy New Year!

2010-12-31T18:26:00.000-08:00

Date is 01.01.2011.

Time is 11:11am

So many one (1).... a new year is here, should feel excited! should feel happy.....

Last year, last night or should say this morning went to bed at 2am, not sure what time really got into sleep. I wasn't plan to countdown, just couldn't sleep.

This morning, woke up at 630am, had breakfast with my company partner, Tee. Then send him and his wife to airport. Now, getting sleepy.....

J1 & J2 are still in bed, not feeling well. Both coughing, J1 had fever too. J3 & J4 will be arriving tonight from Miri. Almost a month that they are there. School re-open in 2 days time, surely will use lots of money.

I will be going to Keningau and Sandakan next week. Keningau meeting on the 7th and the following day will be in Sandakan. I will be leaving on the 5th so that i have plenty of time to complete the claim for Keningau Tropicana. Fortunately, Sandakan Aman Jaya's claim is done.

Works is full, schedule is tight, life is challenging.

Whatever it is, life goes on.... * * *

31.12.2010

2010-12-30T20:06:00.001-08:00

Last day of 2010, last day of the decade......

Lookiong back.... what have i achieved this year? What have i lost this year?

I have changed my job...bought a car, travel more often, starting to live in another town, drive more mileage....getting to know more friends, getting to feel the burden of running my own company..... well, that sum up my 2010 happenings.

Looking forward to the new year, 2011. What's my plan? goals? targets? resolution?

To have a healthy lifestyle, to live better quality life, to have quality time with kids, to spend more time with my love one, and to earn more money......etc

Just thinking aloud...... Happy New Year.

Rest Day

2010-12-28T17:44:00.000-08:00

今天拿假在家休息。没什么特别，虽然血压是高了，应该还是受控制吧。就必须安排运动了，跑步？打羽球？总之，是运动就好。但，希望自己能有毅力。

28.12.10 Hypertension

2010-12-28T03:46:00.000-08:00

Past few days not feeling too well so went to visit the Chinese doc. Blood pressure is 140/92....Stage 1 Hypertension.

I had this, i think last year... April. After regular exercise, it becomes normal. Now, it came back again. I sort of know it will return as i didnt really exercise anymore and constantly eating out also adding to the problem. So, what's now?

Have to go back to exercise and watching the diet.... not easy as looking at my working schedule and lifestyle. Well, whatever it is, still have to find the way to do it, huh?

Hope i will have the dicipline and will to do it and constantly doing it.

You too, take care....

Christmas Eve 2010

2010-12-24T06:42:00.000-08:00

I haven't been writing for more than a month... Tonight is Christmas eve and im sitting alone on the sofa, at home, tv is on, notebook is on, online, writing this...... nice life, huh?

Not feeling very well, headache, tired....

Everybody wishing everybody "Merry Christmas". Is Christmas really merry nowadays? Frankly, i don't feel the atmosphere anymore. I felt empty. People will say it is my own fault...

Is it?

Happy Birthday....again.

2010-11-16T03:52:00.000-08:00

Not feeling well, headache. Today received quite a number of greetings through FB. The furthest came from Colin in New Zealand, Jackson in Singapore, and a few from KL, KK and of course my ex-colleagues, local friends....

Just had podridge for dinner, now drinking red bean soup.

Very tired, so will sleep early.

This is my birthday? well, looks like it then.

Cheers...........

Happy Birthday....

2010-11-15T15:45:00.000-08:00

.... to me.

It is my birthday... why am i feel.... nothing? Is it because when the number getting bigger, you seems to try to avoid the "birthday feeling"?

Anyway, nothing special been planned today, another busy working day, will see how it turn out today....

again, happy birthday, dear me....

15.11.10

2010-11-15T06:17:00.000-08:00

Birthday eve....

why the mood not that good? Thinking too much? I have tried to be happy but just don't have the mood....

you have a good day there....

Celcom 3G.

2010-11-11T18:53:00.000-08:00

12.11.10

Just started using Celcom Broadband...why? coz my quarter in Sandakan and Keningau do not have fixed line telephone, hence no streamyx.

Is the connection good, well, dont know yet as i have just started using it. I have consider Digi but people said Digi is not yet "3G", whatever that means.... So, Celcom it is.

Now, in Sandakan, work here is behind schedule due to the weather but still consider smooth sailing.

I will be driving back to Tawau tomorrow. Should be staying the whole week in Tawau next week to catch up the office work before leaving for a longer trip to Keningau and Sandakan again.

Cheers....

08.11.10

2010-11-07T16:22:00.000-08:00

Mom and Jasper's birthday today..

Jerome's eigth's grade piano exam at 2pm today..

my second tender interview at 12 noon today...

Will i get it? RM26mil.....

getting busy...

03.11.10

2010-11-03T04:50:00.000-07:00

back to base camp, Tawau. Tomorrow will be a long day in the office to catch up all the works.... just imagine, away for 10 days... papers must be piling up on my table. Time to get an assistant, and delegate more works to my staffers.

It has been a fruitful trip. Met with some new contacts, friends and get the job done. Looking forward to the next trip in 2 weeks time.

Glad to see you....

Secret Recipe, Sandakan

2010-11-02T03:25:00.000-07:00

02.11.10.

So diffucult to find a place to get online, maybe im not that familiar with Sandakan afterall, maybe i should get a broadband now..... just found out today that the house that we rent have no telephone line.... terrible!!!

At last, after all the traffic jam, numerous turning around, now sitting down in Secret Recipe, not for the food, not for the cake, not for the drink but just for the chance to get online.... but since is here, might as well enjoy the cake.

eat first....

Keningau - Kota Kinabalu

2010-10-29T05:55:00.001-07:00

second time blogging from Keningau. Work here has completed. Time to move on to KK. Generally, I achieved what i wanted to do here, get to know the sub contractors, complete their documentation for works, assess our work, claim etc....

Off to Kota Kinabalu soon. Tomorrow will be visiting 2 new sites, Telipok and Tuaran. And also meeting with a few suppliers and sub contractors. Long day but sure exciting as im going to see the new sites. I will be interviewing 2 new engineers too, very fresh from uni, don't know what will be the outcome.

Tired, long and winding road down to KK...... i really dont like it. But, no other choice or mode of transportation.

have a good weekend, people.

27.10.10 Keningau KFC

2010-10-26T22:00:00.000-07:00

First time come to KFC to do work!!!!! I think i need to get a broadband, no internet access make my work really inconvenient.

Now at Keningau's one and only KFC, quite a nice set up. Big, comfy and nice music. Perfectly safe coz it is beside the police station!!!!

Ate a burger, not really hungry, just want to order something so that they will not kick me out for sitting here for so long.

Weather is hot during the day and cold at night. But good for my work at the project site. Just hope this weather will continue so that we can catch up the work..

got to return to my work now. Cheers....

23.10.10

2010-10-22T16:44:00.000-07:00

Raining heavily in Tawau... alone in the office....drinking hot milo..

Lots of people have asked me, why do you still come to the office so early since you are the "boss"? I'm still thinking how to answer that. Yes, it has been almost 2 months that i started on my own with my partners. So, what's the difference between working for a company and people working under you? Work.... still work. Still have dateline, reports, phone calls, meetings, discussion, arguement..... I don't know what's the difference. Perhaps, i can go out whenever i feel to? Or more time to "yam cha"? Seriously, sometimes can have 3 or 4 times a day just to have drinks with suppliers, contacts, etc.

Am i enjoying this? i think so. Next week will be a long trip out station. Sandakan, Keningau, Kota Kinabalu. Tonnes of work need to be done there. Hope to be able to enjoy, relax and meet people that i want to meet.

Have a good day, everyone.

昨晚。。。05/10/10

2010-10-05T21:09:00.000-07:00

为难孩子的，我不会忘记！

你们所做的一切，所说的，所传的每一句话，每一个字眼，我都不会忘记！

昨晚，我肯定不会忘记！

29.09.10

2010-09-29T01:58:00.000-07:00

When i started on my own, i thought i can have more time to write on my blog, but somehow.....

Anyway, time travels fast, almost end of the month now. Work has been super busy. Lot of surprises, challengers of course headaches too....

Tomorrow will be going to Sandakan. Hope to be able to enjoy the time there. Till then, take care everyone, especailly... * * *

Selamat Hari Raya.

2010-09-08T19:19:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow will be Raya day, here wishing all muslim a very joyous and peaceful Raya celebration.

I'm still working though coz many works need to be done before next week.

Cheers........

Canon 1000D

2010-09-05T17:25:00.000-07:00

I bought a second hand D-SLR Canon 1000D..... well, i have thought about picking up my photography hobby again lately. I have stopped taking pics for many years, now i wish to re-start again and actually "jump start" it by buying this nice camera.

Hopefully in the times to come, i will take some nice pics for you....

So, this is the 1st pic that i took from the Canon on my new office.

September, 2010

2010-08-31T18:08:00.000-07:00

I havent write anything for so long.....

At last, September is here. A new office, a new notebook, a new car, a new beginning. I'm starting on my own now with my friends. Presently, we have 3 projects in hand, Tawau, Keningau and Sandakan.

It will be challenging but i'm game on it. I want to reach my goal in 5 years time. I want to enjoy my work, enjoy my life with the kids, and also with the person i care about very much. I wish i can do that.

Life is short, don't live in the history, live for yourself and live for the day, right here, right now, that's what matter most.

* * *

Funeral.... Flowers.......

2010-07-15T21:36:00.000-07:00

16th July 2010.

My GM's mother passed on a few days ago, just now was the funeral at his house. We went there to pay the last respect and also show our support to our GM. Not that many people, few than what i have expected, maybe due to working hours. But, the flowers.... really a lot.

When i was looking at the flowers, i was thinking.... when it is my time, how many flowers will I receive? Does that mean the level of existence to others? By counting how many was in my funeral? Please la, don't send, wasting money. Give the money to those who needed it more.

That's one of my wishes..... I would rather put some soft music....

* * *

Thursday, 15 July 2010

2010-07-14T21:19:00.000-07:00

The previous writing was almost 2 weeks ago. What has happened in the past 2 weeks?

The FF "21 Guns" won the Outstanding Awards in the band competition. We had a great time preparing and the boys enjoyed the performance in the competition. We will do it again next year.

Finally, 2010 World cup is over. Spain........ Champion! I was watching in the hotel room, so sleepy and just drifting in and out of the sleep. But, luckily, i was awake for that couple of minutes to witness the only goal of the match. Not very superb or fancy but it did the job for the day. Well, Netherland, you did great too. See you in 2014.

I wasn't feeling good since the KK trip. Tiring.... started to take stresgon today. Hope it will help.

Resignation letter is on my table....but where is the boss? haiz........

Flipping coin.

2010-07-02T20:22:00.000-07:00

Do you make decision by just flipping a coin? Head choose A and Tail choose B?

Does it works? Is it fate or luck or what? I'm just thinking, so i just use that to make decision?

Weekend is here, Brazil lost, not too sad coz i like Netherlands too. Not so crazy about world cup anymore. This weekend will be busy......

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Old age.....

2010-06-30T22:21:00.000-07:00

Really felt old these few days..... here pain, there pain....

The blood test result out yesterday, as suspected cholesterol level is high, really need to watch out my diet, this can eat, that cannot eat....haiz...

and also need to exercise!!!!

How to find time and the discipline to exercise? But still have to do.....

This morning, a friend of mine told me that his friends told him that i looked like 30's only!!!! yish, what a big joke!

I might look young but i really felt old.....

* * *

放手。。

2010-06-27T18:26:00.000-07:00

真的认为没机会，不应该，不合旨意，不合道理？

还是不值得，没勇气，不够深刻？

放手了，放开了，让她飞离去追寻她要的人，她要的梦。。。。

手是放了，但，心是不会放。。。依然是一样。* * *

Wednesday evening....

2010-06-23T07:29:00.000-07:00

Why said you felt down reading my today's writing? Tell me, please....

tired... going to read so that i can fall into sleep.... really hope to sleep well...

good night....

* * *

Forgetful Wednesday....

2010-06-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

this morning went down to town to do something at about 11am, thinking of going to have chicken rice for lunch....

When i arrived at bank, after finishing what i want to do then only i realized i didn't bring my wallet with me!!!!! How to eat?

Haiz..... drove back and lost all the appetite to eat....

back to work.... * * *

星期二，22。06。10

2010-06-21T21:53:00.000-07:00

一个早上就是沉默的忙，忙，忙。。。十二点出去吃了一碟越南鸡饭，不懂为何，吃了仿佛没吃的感觉，结果，就去天鹅买了两个面包。

很想泡 nescafe 喝，但今天带了Tirflora。

心情很不想讲话，但，电话整个早上不曾停过，还好，是电话，不是面对面谈话。真的很没心情聊。就忙，忙，忙。

你呢? 工作如何？

吃午餐了吗？

New Monday...21 June 2010

2010-06-20T18:39:00.000-07:00

I had a strange dream last night... about me buying a camera. Why? Why a camera? I like photography, used to take lots of pics. I still like taking pics but just no time and no money to buy a digital SLR camera to continue this hobby. Why this dream? Is it telling me to buy a camera so that i can continue the hobby? To make me less boring? I dont know.....

A new week ahead, busy as usual....

This morning, open my diary and start the list the names that i want to call regarding EE business. More than 40, but how many can i reach and convince? Only time will tell.

How are you? Are you eating and sleeping well? Take good care....

Slow Sunday...

2010-06-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

20.06.10

父亲节。。。都没发觉。

下大雨，没做工，也一样累，下午想睡但无法入睡。

有注意你的鱼缸少了几只鱼？我卖了，为了想要有多些钱来买较贵，更加漂亮的鱼儿。已到了40级，所以可以买几条套现再选几条比较上等的。做生意的手法。

天气冷冷，雨忽大忽小，还是去躺下发梦，或看我们一起时买的小说。舒服的躺下，思念。。。

晚安。* * *

星期六。。

2010-06-18T17:37:00.000-07:00

19。06。10

星期六了，周末了，工作半天。但，下午还得忙自己的工作，想去十里工地看看。人，是真的不能允许自己休息吗？就是要弄得自己累。。麻木。。

连续喝了两天“特莱霍拉“，今天没喝。就星期一至五喝，周末不喝，好吗？等赚多了就才每天喝。

开工了，愿你安康。

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18.06.10......4:24pm

2010-06-18T01:24:00.000-07:00

Almost time to go home, felt so tired....really really tired.

don't feel like doing any work but the table full of things to rush.

feel like want to get drunk.... but i know you won't like it.

Take care...* * *

没有联络的开始。

2010-06-17T17:31:00.000-07:00

18/06/10。

1095 天的第一天。。。天下着雨，难道天也知我内心的痛苦，低沉？

昨晚真的好累，但心中一直不肯放轻松休息，就因为不想时间溜走。傻瓜，你留得住时间吗? 不可能，只有时间玩你罢了。

忙就好。。。

16th June 2010

2010-06-16T18:39:00.000-07:00

3 years.... start countdown...

Painful....

1B, KK

2010-06-12T23:56:00.000-07:00

Time really flies. If you see carefully, my blog is full of spider web now.... It has been ages since my last writing. What has happened recently? Work, Work, Work, what else? busy, busy, busy, what else?

Well, now im having my break in KK, writing in from a cc in 1B. Nothing special here, just walking around, wasting time..... but im relax.

So, you guys out there, work hard.... if not, just go fly kite.... cheers..

23 May 2010

2010-05-23T05:37:00.000-07:00

Another new week ahead... busy week.

Monday - Management Review Meeting,
Tuesday - Final inspection at Semporna project,
Wednesday to Friday - Keningau project,
Saturday - Kick of meeting for BSI Type A....
this is my coming week schedule.

have fun...

Save the best for the last...

2010-05-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

Sunday (16th May 2010) is almost over, but a piece of GREAT NEWS - THE SIBU MIRACLE!

Good job, well done, DAP.

Keep up the good job.

Gloomy Saturday

2010-05-14T20:27:00.000-07:00

Dark Sky, drizzling, but looks like storm is coming....

Job.... staying or leaving? Am i willing to take the chance, face the risk?

So, what will it be?

"V" - The Flight of Geese.

2010-05-09T18:12:00.000-07:00

I read this somewhere from the net:-

" A major corporation conducted a study on the flight of geese. In their study they found that geese fly in a "V" formation with one goose in the lead. After a period of time, this goose relinquishes the lead to another goose. During flight they noticed head movements of the leader that seem to give signals to the other geese flying, perhaps to let the others know how he was doing. They estimate that the formation flight pattern reduces wind drag due to the lift the other birds receive and believe it increases their performance by up to 70 percent. Whenever one goose drops out, another goes with it. These two geese do not catch up to the original pack, but join another group later."

It talks about team work and team spirit. A goose knows about it, how about you? Interesting, huh?

Cheers....have a nice day.

Sunday, 9th May.

2010-05-09T02:53:00.000-07:00

Lazy Sunday, had a good breakfast with friends, talked about work...just couldn't understand why are we still talking about work in Sunday?????

In the afternoon, Emily and I went to a cafe... she actually wanted to tell me about insurance, some kind of investment but we ended up talking about others stuff like, direct sales, money matters, update each others on common friends status.... A good chat, a good laugh.

Tonight need to start work, another long week ahead. Tomorrow will be the audit to my dept. How many NCR will that be? Ha, as many as possible, please.

17th is the big day for the flat project's handling over. Tomorrow onwards will be super busy getting ready for that big day. But it is a relief that the day is finally here. Phew, finger crossed, let everything goes smoothly.

Have a productive week ahead, people.

Saturday, 8th May

2010-05-07T17:21:00.000-07:00

Finally, something dragged on for the past 2 years has been finalized. The boss is happy, the contractor is happy, just hope everybody is happy, sign on the papers and case settle and CLOSE! Then i can start my move.....

Yes, plan my move, start the ball rolling, let the countdown begins.....

Weekend is here, Iron Man 2 is on, hope to catch it during this weekend, oh, PC fair is also on this weekend. Am thinking of getting an external HD. Tonight will have dinner with mom and sister's family to celebrate Mother's Day.

Happy weekend.....

2010-05-03T20:49:00.000-07:00

May 03...looking at the calender on the table, time flies.... what to do? what to expect? what to plan?

blank.............

26 Apr, 2010

2010-04-26T07:10:00.000-07:00

my legs are in pain...don't really know why. The bottom of the feet, when walking, it just feel pain.

Today starting to use the room in the office. Nothing special, just more quiet. But i have been so busy today running in and out, up and down.... so havent really sink in about having a room for my own.

But, a deeper thought is that how long will I sit in that room, in this company?

I'm seriously thinking about the job offer from GM. Should i go for it?

Unbelievable....

2010-04-22T17:32:00.000-07:00

Just read a news online that a beauty queen in Hawaii died due to a massive stroke..... she was only 18. How can this happen? She was only 18!

A lot of things happened today are beyond our understanding. A lot of things are uncontrollable. Life is short, live well, live wise and live your life full to your extend. That's the only thing i can think of right now. Follow your heart, do the things that you want, say the words that you long for, call the person that you need to, just live life to the fullest. No regrets, no looking back, no turning back.

* * *

22/04/10....2139..

2010-04-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

so tired, so down....can't breathe well....so tired.

Laksa...

2010-04-21T17:13:00.000-07:00

22.04.10...

突然发觉最近很常吃laksa. 是好的吗？知道早上有人会要吃早餐，去到茶店又不知要点些什么来吃。就很自然的吃laksa, 为什么很自然？我也不很懂。就因为喜欢吃？还是因为它是不好吃当中比较好吃的？

还没想这个星期六小组要讨论什么。每个人都忙？还是藉口罢了？我也不懂。真的太多不懂得事了，是真的不懂？还是选择去不懂？

不懂。。。。

我只懂 * * * * * *

点心早餐。

2010-04-20T22:15:00.000-07:00

13：16分了，没吃午餐因为早餐吃了点心。胃很涨，也很腻。吃的时候还蛮好的味道，但回到办公室后不久就开始觉得胃很不舒服。

工作很忙，一下就到了下午，很忙，还是很麻木？身体总觉得不舒服？是压力？是心理？还是真的身体不妥？

今早写了些很心痛的东西。边写边沉。不知看的人看时感觉如何？

要再开工了，没力。。。。

* * *

静。。

2010-04-19T08:19:00.000-07:00

将近半夜了，很静。刚做完 k project's claim. 看起来那边的工程还蛮慢的。二月十六号开工到现在才做了近一百万多一点。可能要过去看看了。

今天没想到看到很多很大的石斑鱼。很漂亮，但贵的很。是准备运去香港卖的。

明天还有开会，为何这么多会开？今天放工时，和朋友去喝茶，他问，现在公司那么多问题，要换工吗？如要就过去他公司，让我休息三个月先，有薪水，在家做，敏感时期过后才到他办公室上班。我很感动，也很想。但我却不肯定他是否是认真的，因为当时我们已喝了两杯。哈哈。

明早他约了七点吃早餐。到时看是否有机会再谈。

* * *

21 Guns..

2010-04-18T00:58:00.000-07:00

Sunday, lazy day. Yesterday afternoon went to a music studio to have the 1st practice of my band. We sang the 21 Guns by Green Day. A wonderful song. Just now we went again! We had 2 practices in 48 hours! Not bad but too bad for my wallet though.

Just now when we were playing, there were a crowd outside looking at us, we felt so weird coz I know they can't listen to what we play and sing, isn't it? How come they were like fully concentrating to us and nodding their heads, strange? Unless they can hear us? How? Anyway, it was a good practise for both times, especially today as we have people watching. Sort of give us a feel of standing in front of an audience.

This is my 2nd band after the FX. What should i call it? FX II? still thinking.....

When we in the studio, the feeling was nice, really nice. It was like surrounded by the music. Very peaceful. It brought back good memories.

Another week is coming. Tomorrow will have a meeting at 830am and 1130 will shoot to "K" town for inspection. I will have my own room now in the office but still no time to move in yet.
How does it feel to have a room by myself? Silly question, what's the big deal? The most important element still is the money at the month end and of course job satisfaction and joy of working. Lacking any of these is the sign to seek for greener pasture.

i want a nap.....

Friday, 16 Apr 10

2010-04-15T22:28:00.000-07:00

Dark sky...hope it will rain soon coz so hot. Weekend is here, what to do? haiz..........

世界停顿。。

2010-04-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

如果你的时间停顿，你会怎样？慌张？惊讶？安静？

今天。。。是我的世界停顿了。不至于世界末日但足于使我觉得绝望。人就是这样，总以为自己对，什么宗教都假，人仍然是依照自己的想法去做，去看，去想。

人生是脆弱的，刹时间就可以消失。昨天一位同事没来做工，今天来了，得知昨天她的两位表姐遇到车祸，就这样走了。事发当时，她们和另两位朋友在回家路途中，车胎爆了，所以就停在路边换车胎。突然间，从后方一架卡车失控撞正他们停在路边的车，结果就两位当场死亡，另两位重伤。就这样，没有了。车就停在路边，没开车，没喝酒，更本没做什么。公平吗？能理解吗？

我常说，自己生命自己活，不要因着别人的看法，想法，做法来决定怎样活自己的生活。但不是每个人都赞同我的看法。就这样，某人不会再联络我了。公平吗? 能理解吗?

人是否真的不能不有遗憾在世界？为什么？宗教真的能帮助人吗？能使人平安吗？能给人喜乐吗？还是一定要人顺从那宗教的教规，所以才能的到他所要的？真的吗？公平吗？能理解吗？这是宗教的宗旨吗？

我不是反对宗教，我只是觉得什么事情，什么宗教都被人控制了。从没想过我会说如此的话。真的很低沉，很无奈，很遗憾，活的很没意思。

思想很乱，所以写的更乱。每天忙进忙出，一人做三份工，很想解脱。工作压力极大，家里都是要压抑。有意思吗？有必要吗？这一切为了谁？就所谓为了孩子们？就没有或不能让我自己有个美好的生活？就要我做到死？公平吗？能理解吗？有必要吗？

当你察觉你做了一个错误的决定后，你会怎样？当你发掘你要去校正那错误时会影响到孩子们时，你会怎样？

为了保持宗教的美名而压抑自己，是对吗？

为了孩子们而使自己活在极度压抑，不开心的状况当中，是对吗？

被逼疯，逼死，又怎样? 孩子们也不是没有了父亲？是对吗? 公平吗？应该吗?

很多问题，都是没答案。或生，或死，好像都没分别。

算了。。

Wed, 14 April 2010

2010-04-13T17:44:00.000-07:00

don't feel like staying in the office. Will find a worksite to go...

Tiring Monday.

2010-04-11T22:29:00.000-07:00

Monday....really tiring....maybe due to lack of sleep...woke up at 3am this morning, hated it.

how to survive this week?

2010-04-09T18:16:00.000-07:00

星期五的早餐。

2010-04-08T17:40:00.000-07:00

醒来想吃laksa, 去了惯常的店，独自坐在角落吃，但还是被朋友发掘，还还了钱。改次大概要打包去办公室才不会让别人花费。我不想别人常常请我吃，我不要欠人人情。会难做人。。。

开工了。。。

Thursday, 08/04/10

2010-04-07T17:59:00.000-07:00

Had a nice breakfast of dim sum at the market... hope it will help me to get through the day.

Cheers.....

Semporna

2010-04-06T18:01:00.000-07:00

Today will go to Semporna for site inspection. I like it coz can see the sea, feel the breeze... hope can have a good trip there.

have a nice day.

05-04-10 Monday

2010-04-04T17:48:00.000-07:00

A new week begins, so? nothing interesting, nothing to be excited about..

what's wrong with me? depress? or just plain down....

need to get to work somehow...

02/04/10..... Good Friday

2010-04-02T17:19:00.000-07:00

清明节要到了，今早和母亲去扫父亲的墓地。其实，也没什么可扫的因为平时都会有人去打理。在清理一些杂草时，心中在想，父亲在另一个境界应该很平静吧，不用烦工作，婚姻，人事。。。想着想着，竟然会羡慕他的情况。

看到许多的人都在扫墓，但这些人有多少心中是平静的？每天都在争吵，在闹，勾心斗角，什么理智不理智，什么道德不道德，什么应该不应该？公司政治，人事问题，婚姻问题，人看错了人，也看错了情况，人没看清楚人，也没看清楚情况。。。人真是累。

人会担心健康，会担心经济，会担心孤独，需要吗？很多事情都不是在自己掌握当中。不知为何，心中有个念头想自己了结算了。躺下六尺下面，就什么都不用烦，不用想，不用担心。应该这样想吗？可以这样想吗？又是应该不应该，又是可以不可以。

如果知道接下来的日子都不会好过，还会有响往吗？虽然孤单生活也可以好好的，但，就感觉很累了，很想放弃。那小的怎办？他们也渐渐长大了，有人也会在旁协助他们面对生活，还有些钱，整理好成为他们接下来生活，念书的基金，应该还可以吧？

心中在想，是否要存到一个目标，然后找律师谈谈如何设立基金？还是先找律师谈妥手续？目标是多少？时间是几时？

想。。。。。。。 *****************************

21 Guns

2010-03-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

By, Green Day

Intro: Dm - A# - F - C (x2)

Verse:

Dm     A#                F        C

Do you know what's worth fighting for,

Dm        A#        F      C

When it's not worth dying for?

Dm      A#        F      C

Does it take your breath away

A#                         C

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Dm       A#         F       C

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

Dm        A#       F        C

And you look for a place to hide?

Dm      A#             F      C

Did someone break your heart inside?

A#                        C5

You're in ruins

Chorus:

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5

Lay down your arms

F5          C5

Give up the fight

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5  F5       C5

Throw up your arms into the sky,

A#5   F5    C5

You and I

Verse:

Dm          A#     F          C

When you're at the end of the road

Dm      A#       F        C

And you lost all sense of control

Dm        A#           F           C

And your thoughts have taken their toll

A#                                       C

When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Dm   A#             F      C

Your faith walks on broken glass

Dm      A#       F       C

And the hangover doesn't pass

Dm        A#   F        C

Nothing's ever built to last

A#                 C5

You're in ruins.

Chorus:

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5

Lay down your arms

F5          C5

Give up the fight

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5  F5       C5

Throw up your arms into the sky,

A#5   F5    C5

You and I

Bridge:

Dm      A#     F            C

Did you try to live on your own

Dm       A#               F        A

When you burned down the house and home?

Dm      A#         F           A

Did you stand too close to the fire?

A#m                          C

Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

Solo:

F5 - C5* - D5 - C5 - A#5 - F5 - C5 (x2)

A#5 - F5 - E5

Break:

Dm - A# - F - C (x2)

Verse:

Dm        A#       F           C

When it's time to live and let die

Dm      A#        F       C

And you can't get another try

Dm         A#         F         C

Something inside this heart has died

A#                 C5

You're in ruins.

Chorus:

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5

Lay down your arms

F5          C5

Give up the fight

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5  F5       C5

Throw up your arms into the sky

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5

Lay down your arms

F5          C5

Give up the fight

F5   C5*  D5

One, 21 guns

C5            A#5  F5       C5

Throw up your arms into the sky,

A#5   F5    C5

You and I

Have you ever seen the rain?

2010-03-30T21:55:00.000-07:00

By, John Fogerty

G

  Someone told me long ago, there's a calm before the storm

    D                       G

  I know - it's been comin' for some time

  When it's over so they say, it'll rain a sunny day

    D                       G      G7

  I know - shinin' down like water

  C       D(sus4)         G    D        Em

  I wanna know - Have you ever seen the rain?

  C       D               G    D        Em

  I wanna know - Have you ever seen the rain?

  C      D            G   (Tab.2)

  Comin' down a sunny day

  yesterday and days before, sun is cold and rain is hard

  I know - been that way for all my time

  'til forever on it goes, through the cricle fast and slow

  I know - and it can't stop I wonder

  I wanna know - Have you ever seen the rain?

  I wanna know - Have you ever seen the rain?

  Comin' down a sunny day    G7

  Yeah - I wanna know - Have you ever seen the rain?

  I wanna know - Have you ever seen the rain?

  Comin' down a sunny day

意外。。悲。。

2010-03-30T17:38:00.000-07:00

昨天看报章时，看到一则讣闻，相片很熟悉但就一直想不起到底是谁，直到晚上看到家前面马路泊满了车，才记起是同排屋子隔几家的邻居。

很常都看到这位邻居驾着车进出，万万没想到，前几天晚上，她和朋友喝茶后，在回家的路途中，车翻覆，因着冲力，被抛出车外而被自己的车子压住，重伤，就这样，离开了。她才26岁罢了。

人就是那脆弱，希望我们活的没有遗憾。。。

累。。。。。

* * *

2010-03-29T23:17:00.000-07:00

Success = position?

2010-03-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

In the workplace one tend to measure his / her success on whether he / she has achieved a certain position or stature in life. The temptation to believe that someone is blessed if they have achieved prominence is always confronting us.

One will worry about whether his / her friend is going to get the same lot in life as he / she has. Or one will contemplating whether he / she is going to get what his / her friend been accorded. But this should not be our concern. We should be concern only with one thing: our own calling / destiny.

Today, I’m asking myself, “Am I tempted to compare myself with where others are in their life? Am I dissatisfied with where I am right now?”

Be of good cheer – as who began a good work will carry it on to completion until the last day.

New Week....Tough Week....

2010-03-28T19:22:00.000-07:00

Just a few words for thought this week...

"Not every man can carry a full cup. Sudden elevation frequently leads to pride and a fall. The most exacting test of all to survive is prosperity" [Oswald Chambers].

It makes me think, how far can one go? A leader is to lead, what if there is no people for you to lead?

When the leader shout, "Cccchhhharge......... Mmmmove......... Fffffight........" but when he turn back and see, nobody there following him... quite funny, huh? or should i say, sad?

It makes me wonder, am I a good leader? a good follower? I always believe you are a leader and at the same time a follower. The matter is whether are you a good one?

Cheers.....

Friday..... D Day..... MRM Day.....

2010-03-25T18:26:00.000-07:00

10am..... mtg with CEO, ED and GMSB on measurement and materials issues..... i've been stabbed from behind and this will be the D day, let's take the bull at the horn.... come on, let's have your best shot!!!!

1415pm..... 1st MRM.... if the morning mtg turn sour, what will happen in the MRM?

I will not fret and i will not back down, let's do it!

2010-03-24T17:25:00.000-07:00

25.03.10

2010-03-24T17:17:00.000-07:00

started raining around midnight...nice feeling, i like rain..

Came into office at 650am....damn early to start work. This afternoon will have an important meeting about money and materials. What will be the turn out?

A bit hungry, went down and found out all 3 shops are not open today!!!! What happen? All decided to on strike together? Can't even get a cup of nescafe now......

Still drizzling out there... back to work.

24.03.10

2010-03-23T21:54:00.000-07:00

feeling not well....

hard to breathe...

stress? pressure?

office politics....

cease contact....

tired....

* * *

Tue...23.03.10 lunch time

2010-03-22T21:06:00.000-07:00

everybody went out for lunch....im so tired and sleepy. Many things to settle. Just heard a terrible news that a friend is in hospital due to stroke. Bad news on a bad day....

Life is unpredictable, so, why can't we just treasure everyday and life up for it.

Tue...23.03.10

2010-03-22T17:38:00.000-07:00

didn't sleep well all the whole night, now damn tired..... how to survive the whole day?

bad day, hate it....

British Humour

2010-03-22T00:10:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine send this to me.... don't fall from your chair, ok?

The train was quite crowded and a U. S. Marine walked the entire length looking for a seat. But, the only seat left was taken by a well dressed, middle-aged, French woman's poodle.

The war-weary Marine asked, 'Ma'am, may I have that seat?'

The French woman just sniffed and said to no one in particular, 'Americans are so rude. My little Fifi is using that seat.'

The Marine walked the entire train again, but the only seat left was under that dog. 'Please, ma'am. May I sit down? I'm very tired.'

She snorted, 'Not only are you Americans rude, you are also arrogant!

'This time the Marine didn't say a word; he just picked up the little dog, tossed it out the train window, and sat down.

The woman shrieked, 'Someone must defend my honor! This American should be put in his place!

An English gentleman sitting nearby spoke up, 'Sir, you Americans seem to have a penchant for doing the wrong thing. You hold the fork in the wrong hand. You drive your cars on the wrong side of the road. And now, sir you seem to have thrown the wrong bitch out the window.'

cheers.....

22.03.2010

2010-03-21T17:34:00.000-07:00

就这样过了一个周末，星期六下午突然走去看了一套英文片，“The Book of Eli”, 蛮好看的片。整间戏院不到十个人，还不用排位，就是自由座位。是经济不好的现象，还是，这个地方没人喜欢看戏？如果是这样，这间戏院生存的日子可预算了。

又一个星期开始了，又是早做晚做的日子了。昨晚收到一则简讯，问“这样做，那样做是为了什么？“ 难道到现在还不知为了什么？

今早又喝了nescafe, 加上经济面就是今天的早餐。这个星期会有什么新鲜事呢？其实，天天都有新鲜事，只是看事的人的心态是如何罢了，至于我，唉，还有什么好新鲜呢？还有什么事情没看过，没听过呢？

这个星期四会开部门主管会议了，听说我也会被叫去出席。通常这个会议是很长的，但，好处是能听到公司第一手的消息。其实，我现在都是很快能听到消息啦，也不一定要在会议里。不管怎样，我想能出席也不是件坏事。只是希望我的部门不会被当箭靶，让公司老板们来练枪。

希望你很快就找到你要找的。。。。* * *

开工了。

The Book of Eli.

2010-03-21T17:29:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday, I went to watch a movie, “The Book Of Eli”. The last movie I watched was 2012, but I think this one is much better, of course, it has got Denzel Washington acting in it.

The Story is about the world after a major destruction due to world war and a so called “flash from the sky” and a man, who has in his possession a book, a very treasured book, of which he was supposed to protect and bring it to a designated place. He didn’t know where and why he was supposed to go and do, but he was just “follow the voice from the heart.” He has been walking at least thirty years. Can you imagine that? Without knowing what’s going on, a guy just follows the voice in the heart and does it for thirty years! Quite far fetch, huh? Of course, it was a movie. Ok?

Along the journey, lots of killing, lives were lost. At last he reached the designated place. The place apparently is a printing facility that trying to restore the world literacy into what the world used to be before the world war that ruined most of the books in the world. So, as the result of this man, Eli, they managed to get another book to print, to remind the world about the existence of this book. His mission accomplished and he finally was laid to rest at the backyard of the printing facility.

The movie made me think, is it worth that many lives just to protect a book? Is he “branded” as a hero, a good man because he made it to the facility so that the world has a copy of the book in spite of so much killing on the way? Whose standard is it to say that he is a good man or a bad man?

Well, it was just a movie; spend some money and 90 minutes of entertainment, why so fuss about it? Right? Next movie I wish to catch is, “From Paris with Love”. It should be good coz have John Travolta in it. Cheers….

Weekend...

2010-03-19T17:54:00.000-07:00

Yeah, weekend is here, no need to work for 2 nights, hopefully can relax... watch TV, eat....

Later have cell group. Saturday seem more relax... what to do in the afternoon? night? Miss the chicken wings.... and somebody to eat with me...

* * *

Think outside the box, don't put yourself in a box.

2010-03-18T18:51:00.000-07:00

Whenever something new came up, it is often met with resistance by the surrounding, those in the more established position, and sometimes among those from whom we would expect support.

When we begin a new thing that cannot be easily explained based upon prior experiences, many make the mistake of assuming it is not to be of good. The very people who should embrace and encourage it become the source of skepticism and opposition. But we must endure it for the good of what we do. Sometimes things happen in ways beyond our limited understanding.

Before you are tempted to criticize or oppose something that looks different from your past experience, ask again for wisdom and discernment. Examine why you might be tempted to oppose it.

Do not put yourself in a box. Think outside the box. You might be able to see things differently and delight yourself in doing and accepting things in ways that may not fit your former paradigms.

19.03.10....

2010-03-18T18:50:00.000-07:00

昨晚睡得好不好？

胸口很紧，呼吸不是很顺畅，压力？stress? 真的很想休息，好好的睡，但谈何容易。。。

前几天和朋友吃饭，得知他因着头晕去看医生。报告说他血压高了，他是朋友当中血糖低者，我们就劝他别喝太多，别抽太多，他却说，“钱都没多两个，孩子都大了，去了就去了吧。“

人生能就这么潇洒吗？能走的那么没有顺利？没有遗憾？

今天要打仗了，工作上很多问题要解决。头痛，但也是挑仗。加油吧。

Nescafe..... 朋友

2010-03-17T18:01:00.000-07:00

今早的早餐时经济面，两块豆腐及一杯难喝的nescafe. 昨天同样的店，同样的人泡的同样的茶，和今天的分别实在是太远了。为什么呢？泡茶者心情不好？和我一样睡眠不足? 还是和老板闹别扭？不管怎样，别拿我们消费者来出气啦。最近又重回喝nescafe了，好还是不好呢？

昨晚，想找朋友出来喝杯茶，拿起手机，一个一个名字来看，从A 下到Z，结果真的不知找谁. 真的那么惨吗？可悲。。。。

心中突然想起周华建的歌“朋友”……

好朋友，可遇不可求。这句话是真的。

如果你有好朋友，要珍惜，更要感恩。如果你认为自己是别人的朋友，好好的对待你的朋友，让他 / 她真的能感觉到你是位好朋友。

祝，当我是朋友的朋友，不当我是朋友的朋友，有个美好的一天。

还有你。。。今天放假陪母亲，希望你有开心的一天。

2010-03-16T17:43:00.000-07:00

11th March 2010

2010-03-11T05:42:00.000-08:00

Finally......at last........waited for so so so long..... it rains, yes, RAINING NOW!!!!!

The weather has been so hot for the past few weeks, no rain, just hot air around. This downpour really sweeps away the heat. Hope the rain won't stop that fast.

Today, i earned an easy RM400 by doing some paperworks. I didnt actually expect a payment somehow it came through.

Still raining, i hope tonight can sleep well.....

Good night, sleep tight....

04.03.10....Thursday

2010-03-03T21:32:00.000-08:00

13:35

so tired and sleepy......hot weather....

Wed, 03.03.10

2010-03-03T06:22:00.000-08:00

22:22....

When you have an opportunity to start business, will you go for it? What a stupid question, of course, go for it!

But, i'm just worry too much. Calculated risk is unavoidable in business world. Maybe i should aso resign and give it a try? Maybe i give present company another 6 months? Maybe wait till next year? After Chinese New Year? After bonus? Ha, money.... how materialistic! This is life!!

So, how are you? How's life over there?

Work is getting heavy, stressful. my good friend has resigned, 3 months down the road will be "ex-colleague".

watching CSI......

March 2010

2010-03-01T21:12:00.000-08:00

02.03.10.

Yesterday deleted my FB account. Why? No why, just don't want certain people to use it as a tool to discredit me and even people around me. So, to those people, get a life or just go fly kite.

Today, started a new account, just to play the Happy Aquarium. Am i crazy? or just too lonely? If you think i am crazy, well, non of your %^*(&^k business anyway. I like it so i play it. That's all. :-)

I have just 4 fishes to start with...let's see how fast can i climb up the level will that little fish and also no other contacts to help. I don't intend to add any contacts or neighbor this time. Just with my own effort and time to climb the level.

ok, back to work...

So be it...

2010-02-21T03:14:00.000-08:00

You know what?

Somebody might think I am a loser, so be it.
Somebody might think I am a fake, so be it.
Somebody might even think I am a liar, so be it.
Somebody might even think I am a playboy, womaniser, so be it
Somebody might as well think I'm not worth being a friend, so be it.

In this world, you just can't satisfy everybody, so be it.
Life goes on!
Sky still bright, sun still there, raindrop still falling down, so be it.
Life must go on!

So, either you go fly kite or just, shake your head and say, "so be it."

A Boss Vs A Leader

2010-02-21T03:05:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since my last posting. Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all of you out there.

I got this from somewhere, quite a good food for thought.

A BOSS Versus A LEADER.

A boss drives,
A leader leads.

A boss relies on authority,
A leader relies on cooperation.

A boss says "I",
A leader says "We".

A boss creates fear,
A leader creates confidence.

A boss knows how,
A leader shows how.

A boss creates resentment,
A leader breeds enthusiasm.

A boss fixes blame,
A leader fixes mistake.

A boss makes work drudgery,
A leader makes work interesting.

What do you think?
Are you a Boss or a Leader?

Go figure....

Starting a New Milestone...

2010-01-13T05:43:00.000-08:00

Yes, a new milestone... my own project is on.

Supposed to be a great news but somehow i dont feel happy anymore due to some sms in the evening...

why?

Negara Ku....

2010-01-09T00:57:00.000-08:00

Churches been torched and bombed...in Malaysia. What happen to our country? When this 1Malaysia slogan came out, i wonder why the situation went exactly the opposite direction?

News said the churches attacked might due to the recently court's ruling of allowing the word "Allah" being used by non muslim. I just cannot understand why are certain people so narrow minded that they think they "own" the word? If the word "Allah" is supposed to be used only by Islam, and "Tuhan" is for other religions, then what is the meaning of the word "Tuhan" in our National Anthem?

Is this case really related to this court's ruling? To those cowards that threw the bombs, go and torched the court if you dare. Show your face if you think you are so damn religious to defend whatever you believe in.

What happen to the PKNZ case? Teo BH? the missing jet engine? Is this bomb case a diversion, so that people will "forget" other cases? Go figure...

President Obama said he took responsible on the last month's failed terrorist attack on board the airliner on Christmas Day. When you look at the case, it should be the chief of airport security, or maybe the chief of CIA, FBI to take up the heat...but President Obama stood up and faced the bull. He said, "he is RESPONSIBLE!" I admire him on his action!

Now, come back to this shore..will this ever happen in Malaysia? So many cases, but no one responsible. Our YBs and ministers? There is a PM with so many questions unanswer, there is a DPM that talk nonsense, there is a Health Minister who is more interested in becoming the top guy in his "party" rather than taking charge of the health ministry. Do i need to say more? The list goes on.......

Today is only the 9th day of the new year, what's next?

YBs, Ministers, can you do something? Buck up please....if not, just go fly kite lah.....

04/01/10 Advanture.

2010-01-05T05:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was so ...... rushing. Whole day driving in and out, hopefully didnt get any speeding ticket.

A last minute decision for me to fly over to Kota Kinabalu in the evening, bought the ticket at the airport, 1945 departured and touched down at 2035pm. People already waiting for me at the airport, briefed the person, signed and delivered the documents, and my mission completed.

I went over without any idea of where to go and where to stay after finishing my job. However, met a good friend on the same flight and we went to have supper together with another good friend. We had a really delicious supper, actually my lunch and dinner at the same time. "Upperstar" now has become my favourite restaurant! Delicious food, wonderful atmosphere, and most importantly, very reasonable price!

I checked in to Casuarina Hotel at Tg. Aru. Old room but good enough to crash for the night. Woke up a few times during the night. Next day (today), took the first flight 0740am back to Tawau.

These 2 days have been super busy, today received confirmation on my new post and job scope. It will be a great challenge and i just hope and wish that everything will go smoothly in my department.

Tired, no mood to write anymore, good night wherever you are.....

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Lazy Sunday...

2010-01-02T21:45:00.000-08:00

3rd day of the new year, boring, hot, and lazy. Well, can be consider a "hardworking" Sunday since i have cleaned up my arowana tank, and also add up water to the tropical and marine tanks. Plus getting the place ready for the tuition class.

Talking about tuition, i will have more students this year. How are they? Can i help them? I surely hope so!

Just finished browsing through the newspaper. Nowadays, when you read newspaper, those MSM, really .......... can't even find words to describe it. In this country, we have lots of clowns, fools, and whatever you want to call them. Don't ever think that just because these people are wearing expensive suits and ties and travelling in and out of our Parliment for meetings, and whom we are supposed to call "YB" are really better than us....if you really read what they say and how they behave, you really shake your head. I wonder where are we heading when we have these bunch of clowns be our so called YB, MP and lawmakers..

With these people around, can anybody really say "Happy New Year"?

I doubted so.....

New Year 2010.

2010-01-01T06:58:00.000-08:00

2355...

1st day of the new year almost gone. I went to a friend's bbq party at his plantation at 1630. Had a great time eating, chatting and of course drinking. Haven't had such a relaxing and fun time for a long time. I wonder why?

We had bbq, Chinese New Year songs, and fire crackers and even fire works. Everbody seems like into Chinese New Year mood! Maybe too much drinking, now felt sleepy, work hasn't finished yet. Well, tomorrow work half day, afternoon can continue my work.

So, good night.... Have a blessed and productive new year.

2010....

2009-12-31T16:44:00.001-08:00

Yes, a new year.. resolution...what?

earn more money....
learn to play golf...
do more fishing...
play more face book...
stay healthy...
blogging more...

what else? can't think of anything.....

start this day, this year with doing a job for friend, later will go to his "kebun" for BBQ and fireworks.

31.12.2009

2009-12-30T21:23:00.000-08:00

Today....31.12.2009, the last day of 2009.

What has 2009 done for me? Or what have i done in 2009? Why everybody in a party mood today? Folks, today just another day, a day passby, a new day approach...

A year gone pass, time to reflect? time to plan? or... time to sleep?

I'm tired... physically, mentally and emotionally.

2009... so what? 2010....so what? Go fly kite....

Fishing Trip

2009-12-13T04:10:00.000-08:00

Today, 13 Dec, i went to fishing with 7 friends. Most of us caught something, i managed to catch 4 small, palm size groupers and one red fish.

The sun was really hot but the nice sea breeze help to cool us down. However, around 530pm, it started to rain so we decided to call it a day coz the sea started to get rough too... quite a sea sick trip on the way back to shore..waves became stronger and higher, exciting but a bit scary too.

Overall, it was an enjoyable trip. Looking forward to another one probably on the 25th Dec.

Cheers....have a good week ahead, pal. Well, if not, go fly kite then. :-)

1Malaysia

2009-12-09T05:32:00.000-08:00

What is this 1Malaysia? a motto? an idealogy? a goal? or just plain stupidity?

You remember some time ago, a guy called all the Chinese "Pendatang"? After all the big hoohaa from all over, his party suspended him for 3 years, but i just read from the paper that they lifted his suspension and everybody is welcoming into their party and he will be active again.....again to call whoever "Pendatang"....

So, this is 1Malaysia, now i understood. 1Malaysia is only for 1 Malaysia. I dare you out there, whoever is reading this, write or make noise to your local rep, be it in BN or PR, sort this out. Make known to the Malaysian what actually is 1Malaysia!

If they can't, then vacant their seat and just go fly kite!!!!

New York

2009-12-08T03:57:00.000-08:00

My last writing was in September... Time flies. December now, a few more days, 2009 will be over.

Couple of things happened lately. I dreamt about going to Los Angeles, but went to New York instead. Had a great time with friends, enjoyed the local most famous food, burger!! We should enjoy our time, there are many people around us, some like us, some hate us, who cares??? I can't control what people say, think and act. Why do i need to make myself feeling down over what they think or say. Just like Bon Jovi said, "It's my Life!"

Yes, it is my LIFE and i'm going to enjoy it my way or no way. People can think, say whatevcer they want. So be it!

Yeah, let's start anew, Puffin's sky..... the sky is the limit!

Kenangan Terindah

2009-09-20T20:37:00.000-07:00

Today is Hari Raya. Just want to wish all my muslim friends a very Selamat Hari Raya.

Recently, i came to know this song, i think it was by an Indonesian Band. The title is "Kenangan Terindah". A very nice song, the funny thing was when i was searching this song on youtube, my twins can actually sang the whole song! Apparently they learnt and sang this song in school. I'm really getting old. Here's the lyrics of it..

Aku yang lemah tanpamu,
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu
enyangjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak perdetak
Selama itu pun ku mampu
untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukmu
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam
hiupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang
terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukmu
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam
hidupku

Namun takan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang
terindah

This is one of the very nice malay song, go search, listen and enjoy it.

31st August 2009

2009-08-30T19:21:00.000-07:00

Just want to wish all of you a Happy Merdeka Day. Just wish all of us will have a trully Merdeka Day in our beloved country.

CIA / FBI / MACC

2009-08-25T22:28:00.000-07:00

The CIA, The FBI, and the Malaysian MACC are all trying to prove that they are the best at apprehending criminals. The US President decides to give them a test. He releases a rabbit into a forest and each of them has to catch it.

First the CIA goes in. They place animal informants throughout the forest. They question all plant and mineral witnesses. After three months of extensive investigations they conclude that rabbits do not exist.

Next the FBI goes in. After two weeks with no luck they burn the forest, killing everything in it, including the rabbit, and they make no apologies. The rabbit had it coming.

Finally the MACC goes in. They come out two hours later with a badly beaten wild boar. The wild boar is yelling: "Okay! Okay! I'm a rabbit! I'm a rabbit!"